I am, in fact, still offering readings. However, you are the last person I will read for on my personal blog.
Anyone else looking for a tarot reading should contact me here.
I am using a new spread for you.
It is called the “In the Mood for Love” Spread (click for source), which is to help you get a better understanding of yourself and your love life.
Nine cards are used. All of the cards make a heart shape, except for number nine, which goes in the middle. Each card holds a different meaning in reference to the spread and your love life. Here is a summary of the spread for you:
Card One: Openness to love, ability to love, in the present.
Card Two: Hopes and desires, what you are truly looking for.
Card Three: Attitude you must change.
Card Four: What is holding you back, outside influences.
Card Five: Your true potential to love.
Card Six/Seven/Eight: Refer to the future.
Card Nine: Soulmate card (to be taken lightly)Card Six: What to look for emotionally.
Card Seven: What to look for physically.
Card Eight: Outcome, answer.
Now, let’s get onto the reading!
Your Cards, In Order:
I’m not going to give you my first impression of this spread because I have never used this spread before. Instead, I will tell you my interpretations of what the cards mean based on their traditional meanings and in reference to their place in the spread.
Card One; Six of Cups: You are in a place of dreaminess right now. You look back on past events with fondness and nostalgia. Perhaps you are remembering someone from your past who then meant a lot to you and made you happy. “…Although it may be pleasant to remember the past, it is best not to dwell on it, or, worse yet, idealize it.” Apart from this, you appreciate life’s small pleasures right now, especially the acts of kindness, generosity, and compassion from others towards you. It affects the way you see people and interact with them. This card can also symbolize the return of a past lover or friend into your life. “The influence of the past is coloring your judgment and decisions, and you need to decide if this is happening in your favor.” Also, remember to have patience, if you are not already.
Card Two; Five of Swords: This card usually symbolizes defeat, failure, anxiety, loss, greed, and discord. It is the epitome of winning and losing; “You are sometimes the defeated and other times the defeater. Consider what you are willing to do to get ahead. It may be time to cut your losses….Work on boundary issues.” Basically, I think this card symbolizes some of the things you don’t want in the future and in a relationship. You don’t want this sense of anxiety and loss and defeat. You don’t want someone who is going to bring you down and hurt you. You want to move on. You want a healthy relationship.
Card Three; Four of Swords: This card represents someone who is taking time away from literally everything. They have made themselves dead to the world in order to recuperate and recharge. They have experienced strife and wounds, and they need to heal. While this is a good thing, and it is important to do, perhaps you have done enough of it. Based on the position in the spread, it is supposed to symbolize an attitude you need to change. Maybe you are a little too dead to the world. Maybe it’s time for you to do what you want and need to do - move on.
Card Four; The Fool: You are afraid to move on. You are afraid to shed what you know because you are afraid of the unknown. Don’t be. It’s ok. It’s ok not to know what’s ahead of you. It’s also ok to be scared. However, don’t let it hold you back. When you see the Fool in a spread, you should expect changes and newness. Open yourself up for these changes. Have an open mind. Don’t let yourself be empty. You are not. You have potential. Trust in the universe to provide what you need. Once you allow yourself to move on, you will gain new understanding and be made whole. You are at a crossroads and need to make a decision. Perhaps you feel the need to be rebellious and independent, but it’s ok to need help. It’s ok to be carefree and spontaneous. It’s ok to be new and original at something.
Card Five; Faith: ”Put your beliefs into practice.” You have potential that needs to be realized. Once you realize it, you will master it and become wiser and stronger. Maybe you will even be able to teach and help others. You will find yourself in a good place, able to love and care for others fully - to your full potential.
Card Six; Page of Wands: Foster your individuality and creativity. Use your knowledge and wisdom. It’s ok to be a “newbie.” I believe this card wants you to look for something that holds passion - someone who is passionate for you but also allows you to foster your passions for other things beyond just that person, a relationship that is passionate not just in love but personalities. Allow yourself your adventure. The keywords of the card are as follows: “impulsive, creative, outspoken, edgy, enterprising, direct, winning, dynamic, theatrical, brilliant, exuberant.”
“Explore what you can do to fuel your inner flame.”
Card Seven; The Magician: Look for someone with the following keywords: “creativity, skill, concentration, power, brilliance, synchronicity, flexibility, convention, fresh start, selected destiny, success, learning, conscious awareness, action, transformation, origination, skillful, confident, intense, active, effective communication.”
Card Eight; The Sun: Your outcomes. “Gain, riches, self-assurance, life force, masculine energy, pure light, promotion, attainment, liberation, bright, daylight, clear, gratitude, wealth, life, light, individuality, joy, confidence, achievement.”
Card Nine; Six of Wands: (Please take this card lightly. It is to be interpreted with care.) Your ideal lover is fierce and successful. They are a warrior who attains victory. They are proud. They are recognized by others as a glorious success. They can be stubborn, impulsive, and dramatic. They value social acceptance, team work, and winning. They like their desires to be fulfilled. They like to get out of something what they put into it. They are creative and have goals in work, art, and science. They like to be recognized, especially for the things they try hard at.
First, let me apologize that this took so long! I stepped away from my computer for a bit because a sudden headache hit. I went to take some advil, and then I ate a little snack to get the headache to go away so that I could properly meditate with the cards.
Anyway! What I have been doing is a three card spread, unless some other cards decide to fly out of the deck while I’m shuffling, in which case, I’ll sometimes end up with more than three cards to read.
After I have the cards, I look at each of them and try to discern what I feel from them or what I notice about them. My first instinct about the card - my intuition - is just as important as the card’s more traditional meaning. So, I will be giving you both. If I am making a specific transition, I will let you know.
Your Cards (In Order From Left to Right):
I sense guidance and wisdom from the Moon card. It’s also a very feminine card; feminine energy is involved, particularly strength and power in feminine energy.
Looking into it’s traditional meaning with the book that accompanies my tarot deck, I will add the following: You have gone through trials and tribulations, and you feel confronted. One moment, you may feel in control, and then the next moment, that is all taken away from you. You dread these moments. However, you must find the will to move forward and put such things behind you. Try not to find battles where there are none, as well.
The Three of Coins card symbolizes a man working diligently and putting in a great deal of effort, but this effort is not painful to him. He works on something he loves, and the fruits of his labor are never sweeter. Thus, he puts great time into his work, and he pays attention to all of the details in order to obtain his success and happiness in that success.
Perhaps you should work on trying to see your tormentor in a different light. Attempt to make amends with him, or try to work on better communication skills with him. Build a healthier relationship, and pay attention to the details. Maybe you could try finding out why he is upset - get to the root of the weed, and remove it from the garden. If you work through the issue, instead of letting him be passive-aggressive with you, the situation could be resolved, and you will find peace - through the hard work you put into it.
The Nine of Wands card depicts a man kneeling down on one knee, bowing his head, and presenting a wand upwards as homage. He is beneath a crescent moon, and on the other side of the card, light from the Sun is shining in, which could symbolize the passing of the dreadful moments mentioned earlier. His kneeling could also symbolize someone surrendering, whether it be you or him.
After looking into the book, I will add the following: After dealing with these barbs for a while, you are starting to feel weary. Your resolve could be crumbling. Don’t let it. “We must demonstrate leadership and make that final effort….Perhaps he has surrendered a great deal, but although he is bowed, he is not broken.”
You have great strength, and even when you feel weary, there is still a reserve of strength waiting for you to take a hold of. Channel your discipline to put on your thick skin and withstand your torment. ”Your reputation and experience have prepared you to face the challenges ahead. A sense of purpose provides courage.”
This is what I have gleaned from the cards based on intuition and the book. I will leave it up to you to take what you will from what I’ve said. It is possible you will take a whole different meaning from this than I might anticipate, and so I leave it up to you to piece together what is offered here from the Legacy Tarot. However, I hope that I have helped you out in some way.
Aw, thanks!! :DD
What about now? ;)
Come off anon, and I might tell you.
Do you mean my avatar picture?
But thank you <3 I appreciate that. :)
You should come off anon, doee!
No reason to hide~!
I have no crushes at the moment.
Yes, I get pleasure from that, but I don’t want anyone to touch me down there…because even if it would be irrational, it would make me feel like they thought I was a girl and not a guy. I think, unless I knew for a fact that I was committed to the person and we were in love forever and they 100% viewed me for who I am, it would make me anxious, scare me, and trigger dysphoria.
Oh, jeeze, lol. This is kind of an awkward question to be asked…
Guys, if you follow me and know me in person and happen to stumble across this, let’s just agree never to mention it, ok?
Well, sometimes…I have this thing where I seriously feel like I actually have a dick. I’ve come to find that it’s pretty common for transmen. I guess you could refer to it as a “phantom dick” or “phantom limb,” even though that usually has to do with people who are amputees, and frankly, I’m not.
Still, though, I sometimes get this sensation where I honestly feel like there is something in my pants. It usually happens when I’m turned on, and I feel like I’m hard or feel like there’s a bulge there.
Sometimes, if I’m laying in my boxers, I can feel it like it’s pressed up against my inner thigh or something. It’s kinda wierd. I try not to think too much about it.
So sometimes I can just pretend to stroke myself, and to me, it feels good, ‘cause I guess my mind thinks something is actually there and that I’m actually jerking off. In all honesty, though, I can’t get off like that because of the lack of stimulation, so for me, I have to apply pressure to the clit area. Pressure really does more for me than rubbing, but I guess there is a little rubbing involved (sometimes dry-humping works, lol). However, I’m rarely - if ever - comfortable with actually touching myself down there…because it feels so wierd. It makes me a little dysphoric, ‘cause my mind is like, “What? Why is that there? When did that get there? Oh, my gosh…That feels so wierd and disgusting. Ew.” So I have to do it with clothes on, otherwise, I’m kind of turned off.
That was the most personal I’ve ever gotten in public on the internet. Lol. But really, I’m kind of an open book, so I don’t really mind. It’s just a tad bit embarrassing, because I often feel like there’s something wrong with me or that I’m wierd…but I know that I’m not. I’m not the only one who experiences this. And I feel like answering questions like this could help someone else who is going through the same thing. I also don’t mind trying to do my best to help educate on trans* issues or trans* topics…not that I’m an expert or anything. I always try to keep an open mind, though, and to see things from all angles. I’m always wanting to learn and gain more knowledge.
I hope this helps, and if you have further questions, don’t hesitate to ask. If they get too personal or too uncomfortable to me, I might ask you to let me private message you, but yeah…
There it is.
Awwwww, thanks!! :)) I really appreciate that. <3
No need to be anon!
Pleasure doing business with you.
They aren’t memes. They’re gifs.
This is a meme:
And yes, I save the gifs in a folder on my computer and use them for “showing emotions” or making jokes. I also use them for roleplaying purposes.
Tell your friends I said hi :)
Lol. Wtf? That didn’t even make any sense. My only response to this is to laugh.
Thanks for the wonderful copypasta, Nonny, but see my previous ask answer, please.
Just because you have a PhD does not mean you know more about bike laws. In fact, most Americans know nothing about bike laws, and I’m fully aware that I’m mostly ignorant. BUT - I’ve grown up being told by my parents that if I am traveling a busy roadway, especially one with gigantic buses, that I should opt for the sidewalk so that I don’t get crushed.
However, I’ll have you know that I don’t ride on the sidewalk, unless it is relatively vacant. That is the case in which I was operating. There were only a few people on the sidewalk at the time, and the one girl I happened by started out on one side of the sidewalk, permitting me to go beside her and then wandered into the middle because she was on her phone.
And hello, on a campus, there are tons of bikes and sidewalks and hardly any roads. 96% of the biking I do on campus in order to make it to my classes on time is done on large sidewalks that weave between the buildings. There is only a road next to the dormitories, and there are constantly cars, trucks, and buses riding by - mostly because of the construction the campus is having done to it at the moment.
At the time in which I was traveling the sidewalk today, there were two buses passing by - one coming toward me and one passing by. There was no room for me on the road. I had a Chem lab that I was running late for, and my only option was the sidewalk. Literally no one here gives a fuck if bikes are on the sidewalks, because it’s mostly our only option. Not to mention, with just as many bikers as there are walkers, if not more, it stands to be logical that pedestrians would keep an eye and ear out for bikers. When I’m walking, I always do, and I make sure the get the hell out of the way if someone is coming near me on a bike. It’s just the smart thing to do. However, I don’t blame the girl today because she had her earphones in, and she didn’t hear me coming. She, herself, even said to me, “I should have been listening with only one earphone in so that I could have heard you coming; I’m so sorry!” I told her she needn’t apologize, and I took full blame for what had happened.
In NO WAY was I blaming that girl for “being in my way” or some shit like that, if I didn’t already make that clear enough.
This is MY blog, and I was simply relating a story of something interesting and funny that happened to me today. I also just happened to make a comment that it is MY PERSONAL BELIEF - whether right or wrong - that pedestrians (WHETHER BIKES ARE INCLUDED IN THE EQUATION OR NOT) should walk on either the right or left side of the sidewalk. Even when I am walking, this is a problem. It makes it hard to get around people with lots of bags and stuff when they are walking in the middle of the sidewalk.
So thanks for the concern and input, Anon, but really, with your lack of grammar and tact, I highly doubt that you have a PhD and are as intelligent as you so imply. Also, I highly doubt that you’ve biked cross-country six times. And even if you have, that has no weight in this conversation. I don’t even really care what your background is. All I care about is the way you’re treating me via the internet over anon. That’s just pretty low and immature, in my book, and it’s a pet peeve of mine.
So if you don’t like my blog, my posts, and my views, then GTFO.
You don’t have to follow me, and you also don’t have to agree with me.
But I would have responded to your claims - and listened to them - in a much nicer manner if you had been off of Anon and simply stated nicely and calmly to me what your opinions were. Instead, you attacked me, so what the hell do you expect?